Passion Pivot

Some feel they’ve found the passion they want to dedicate their life to.

Others feel they’re dedicating their life to finding their passion.

Whether you’re the first or second, I just want to touch on the probability/possibility/permissibility of pivoting your passion.

I am young, so of course, one day I love math, another I love philosophy, another I want to become the greatest grappler ever to walk the earth; whatever it may be that day, there are usually a select few that stay consistent.

For me, I love lifting weights & philosophy. Everything else is ever so changing.

To add on, there are some things you passionately dislike. For me, that was Coding.

It went against my identity. It was logic-based intelligence that I was bad at.

But I am so good at math. That is who I am. How could I be bad at this?

Trying it out made me rethink who I was. Maybe I wasn’t really that smart. So many other people were amazing at it and I couldn’t even get past the first line of code.

So, I manually and automatically decided to dislike it passionately.

So much so that I started hating math and loving reading. A complete flip from the first 15 years of my life.

SO MUCH SO, that I went from near failing English state test scores and near-perfect math state test scores to barely passing Trig and writing a book.

Fast forward getting rejected from college and getting pulled back from my stay in dreamland — where I could just write and talk about philosophy all day long and become ever so wealthy by people just enjoying whatever words I regurgitated from greater minds that came before me — I now (in conversation with my parents) have pivoted to Data Science and Programming.

For the first few weeks, it SUCKED.

I almost gave up every day. I felt dumb. I legit could not grasp what I was being taught.

But I spent hours looking for the semi-colon I missed, re-reading and re-reading, and going on separate websites to find methods of doing things; it’s all starting to click.

I am actually starting to love it.

I am gaining a necessary skill, a valuable skill, and most rewardingly, I am doing something that I thought I couldn’t do, something that made me feel incompetent when I first started.

Not only am I gaining a new passion, but I did not lose my previous passions, nor the lessons that were learned from obsessing over those passions.

Maybe if I became passionate about these blogs, they’d be halfway decent.